Tuesday, November 2, 2010

I love the San Francisco Giants.

Last night was historical. I will be telling my kids of that night. The San Francisco Giants won the World Series. A outcome I have hoped to see since I was a little girl. I was lucky enough to be able to be IN San Francisco to watch the game. A night I will never forget! So how did I come to love a team this much? Well its not just a team to me, its a passion.

My dad raised me showing me his passion for baseball, and with that the Giants.
So my love of them started early. Will Clark was my favorite player.

But beyond that I developed a love for the game. I was lucky enough to be in Oakland when Nolan Ryan pitched his 6th no hitter. I was 3 so I don't remember much of it but my dad saying "You just witnessed something great, I hope you never forget that"

As I got older my love grew, and I met other people who had the same love for the game and my team. We bonded together and went to games and cheered for our boys of summer.
I have the best memories ever in that beautiful, beautiful stadium. Its one of my favorite places ever because of that.

Win or lose I have always loved the Giants and I always will, for several reasons.
1. They are in San Francisco, my favorite city...ever.
2. They are really the only sports team I care about. Basketball...eh. Football..eh. Baseball...GIANTS!!!!!!!
3. They gave me my first passion. and with that gave me my first love.
4.This team that was a team of misfits that nobody really thought much of. Yet they rose above that. So above all else, they have inspired me.

So Thank you Giants. And Congratulations...you deserve it more than anyone. And to all the fellow fans and friends, thank you for sticking by our boys and Congratulations to you too. You earned this as well. And thank you Dad for sharing with me your passion.

Black and Orange for life.

Monday, October 11, 2010

thank you boys

Giants beat the Braves tonight.
Thank you boys....I needed this win too.

Wednesday, September 29, 2010

Sunny Days

I learned my foundations of life from Sesame Street. Laugh if you like, but really its true.

Always play nice. Being a nice person is my biggest goal in life. Being nice to somebody can get you so much further than being rude. People are drawn towards people who are kind. You can just go much farther in life just by being nice. Its makes all the difference.

Always try your hardest. Things can be tough, things can pile up, and its easy to get bogged down. And trying to keep your chin up in very hard in this situation, but its those around you who push you to do you best. They know what you are capable of and will do whatever it takes to make sure you know that. So when you are doing something, do it for them, cause even if you fail...they will still applaude you for trying your hardest.

It's okay to cry.

Joshua Radin does an amazing version of the Sesame Street theme song...I encourage you to listen to the whole song and remember the times you listed to it as a kid. Have fun.. Sunny Days

Wednesday, September 15, 2010


Tonight I was super thankful for Quinn Scott Callender. 1st and formost....he is so freaking cute.
Quinn is sooooooo cute.
Loni and I got to babysit him tonight and get some quality Q time. He is so much fun and so easy to make smile. And his wonderful smile makes everyone around him smile. He is just a happy cute little boy.
Tonight he got to scream at me for a 30 minutes which neither of us enjoyed, he was tired and I wasn't his mommy. But once he finally rested his little eyes we got some quiet time. As I was sitting with sleeping Q in my arms trying to to breath wrong in case it might wake him up, I was super thankful for the peace he had. All he needed to get it was for somebody to hold him tight and tell it everything was going to be ok. Thats it. It gave me hope. I am surrounded by wonderful people who hold me tight and tell me everything is going to be ok. To all of them, my peace is coming, promise. Just stick with me. Thank you for holding me tight.

I told you he was cute.

Monday, September 6, 2010


As I was packing to go back to school, I got sad. I have to leave Jon Deb Eleanor and Emerson (who was being birthed as I type this). They are my family, they truly are.
I am so thankful and blessed to have them in my life.
I'm not really sure how things worked out exactly but I started working for Jon and that led to me staying with Deb while she was preggo with Elle. I somehow bonded with them over a christmas break. They opened their home and hearts to me. I fell in love with Elle more and more each day.
I talked with Jon and found him to be a great mentor, listener and friend. His passion is just amazing. I cannot even describe how it drives him in ways that make a great difference. It makes me strive to find my passion and make a difference. I know I can go to him for anything and he always has my back. He has taken the place in my life as the older brother I can count of at all times. Our constant bantering makes me laugh so much I cry (mostly just from my retarded eye). The way he is a husband and father is a great model for me on what I deserve in my life.
Deb is the sister I have always wanted. She gives the best advice and listens with a open ear. She shares my love of sweets (and frosting) and doesn't judge. I love shopping with her cause she encourages me to try stuff on just to try it on. I love watching all our tv shows together picking who we love and who we hate and can't wait for them to get voted OFF. I have loved helping her get artsy stuff for the house and looking up new ideas. She is easy to talk to and is always willing to help me out. Deb has a beautiful heart. I love her to death and I inspire to be like her in so many ways.
Sonoma and I were instant friends. She is easy to please and super fun. My first memory of her is her breaking into my room and waking me up the first night I stayed with Deb. She sleeps on my bed every night. We are bonded forever. She is my favorite pup.
Eleanor constantly brings me smiles. Hers is so contagious and fun. She is never dull. I have loved being a part of her life as she grows.
Emerson I just met but we are already bonded. I would press on Deb's belly and play tag with her and chatted with Em convincing her to GET OUT hehe. I can't wait to see her grow! I am so excited to be Auntie to two wonderful little girls that brighten my life.
This is my family. I love them with all my heart.
I cannot thank them enough for all they have done for me.
But I will try....here goes.
the words thank you do not even close to being enough for all you have done for me. You have been my confidants, my landlords, my friends, my advisors, and most of my family.
We have laughed, cried, and eaten (lots) together, and I have cherished every minute of it. So thank you for you have done, are doing, and will do for me. I hope I have been able to touch your lives as much as you have mine.
This is my family. I love them with all my heart.

Saturday, September 4, 2010

my twin..but blonde

I have been thinking about my dear friend Caiti and I am super thankful for her.
We met at PUC back in the day through well mutual friends. The first think I noticed about Caiti was she was a Giants fan, from southern California. I immediately had the upmost respect for her and thought she was super cool. As time went on I got to know a bit more about Caiti, like we had the same taste in music, she introduced me to indo boards, and she has the best laugh ever. seriously, when she laughs its pure joy. I love it. The funny thing about our friendship is, I always thought Caiti was super awesome, but we never really got to chat and become better friends. Even after she left for Montana I would think "Man Caiti is so cool. I wish we were better friend, we could be best friends." She came back and was down in Loma Linda when I went down for Christmas break. A big group of us got together to go to dinner. Caiti and I finally got to chat and confess how we both thought we could be best friends. ha.
Caiti is so inspiring to me. She has the biggest and loving heart. I love reading her blog as she talks about "'Im so glad I lived today" moments. They drive me to look for the moments in my life that make an impact. She loves to have simple fun. She loves Buster Posey. Who couldn't love Caiti? I am so thankful to have her in my life. She listens to my woes, she laughs with me, she plans with me, and she inspires me to take action, seek God, and constantly show others love.
So Caiti, Thank you. Thank you for being a great friend and a wonderful inspiration. Thank you for being my blonde twin from southern california. I love you girl! WINNER WINNER CHICKEN DINNER!!!

Thursday, September 2, 2010

Becoming me again.

This summer has sucked. emotionally.
I have been crushed in a way that I cannot even begin to describe. I have hurt in a way that I could never wish upon anyone. I still feel it and am trying understand how to move past it.
It has changed me. It has changed the way I view trust, marriage, people. I has changed how I think about my life and who I am.
The thing I have been noticing the most about what has changed is it has mad me so negative. Thats not me, I'm not a negative person. I never have wished to be. Negativity can destroy somebody. I will not let this happen to me.
So everyday I will find things to be thankful for or that made me smile.
My hope: these will help carry me through the rest of this hurt and help me become me again.

So starting today, here we go.
I am thankful for Eleanor Grace Thornton. She is my favorite person. Today we went on a walk, we colored, we danced, we laughed, she cried, and she gave me hugs and kisses. She loves me no matter what and is always excited to see me. I love her so much. I hate to leave her to go back to school. But I know as soon as I walk in the door for break I will hear "Annie!!!!!" I am thankful for her everyday.

Wednesday, September 1, 2010

so thankful.

I seriously have the best people in my life.

I am so unbelievably blessed with those who have stepped up and become my family.

This summer has been one of the hardest of my life. I could have never made it through without the support I have. I have the best friends in the world.

I can never repay them for all they have done for me.
So to all of you,
From the bottom of my heart, everything that I am,
Thank you.

Monday, August 23, 2010

good news always brightens the heart

When making a friend its always interesting to see how it all begins.
With Alyrie, I met her once quickly in passing almost. I was in my own little world at the time and probably came across standoffish. I feel so bad for that looking back, allowing myself to be so involved in myself not see such a wonderful person in front of me.
I wrote her a while later just saying hi and it was nice to meet her and made plans to meet up again next time I was in town. Sadly that time never came. Hard times befell us both and our friendship bonded over pain and hurtand with that we started talking and our friendship. We talked, emailed and texted. We were both open and honest with each other. She gave me comfort and prayers. She let me feel what I was feeling. She let me vent. She was a far away friend. She helped me smile. I can only hope I did the same for her.

Alyrie had cancer. I can say had because tonight she gave me the greatest news that she is cancer free!!! My heart jumped tonight when she told me!. So much stress is lifted off her in a way that I can only dream of. I couldn't be happier for her.
My heavy heart has lightened a bit with this news. So with all of that, I have two things to say to my dear friend,
1. Congratulations. You are one of the strongest women I know. You held your head up strong and in times of hurt you allowed yourself to feel it. You inspired me to keep my chin up with my pain that wasn't even close to what you were going through. You were a comfort to a emotional girl that you barely knew. You were so kind to me even in a low time for you. So for all of that my 2nd thing to say
2. Thank you.

Wednesday, August 11, 2010


I love scrubs.

This made me smile today.

Wednesday, July 21, 2010

creating a better story

I just finished reading Donald Miller's book A Million Miles in a Thousand Years. In he talks about life being a blank page and what you do in your life writes the story of your life and who you are. He realized sitting on the couch isn't a story people would want to read.

I read this and realized my story is boring. I'm not doing anything that would make people interested in reading it. Sure I've done some cool things here and there but a whole lot of nothing. What can I do in my life to make my story better? I have been sitting around in school or working at a coffee shop, but nothing somebody would want to read about. I have experienced hurt and pain which has kept me from doing more. My story sits on the couch.

"A good storyteller doesn't just tell a better story, he invites other people into the story with him giving them a better story too." -Donald Miller.
I'm going to build wells. Lots of them. I have started my story. I applied for a job in New York to start my story. Completely changing my life and where it puts me. Starting to do something that I know will make a difference for others and my life. I have never prayed so hard for something as I have for this job. I cannot wait to see what God does for me. Even if I don't get this job...I'm still going to build wells for people. I am going to Africa to meet and photograph these people. I cannot wait. I invited anybody who want to do this, to join. Lets write a story together.

I cannot wait to see what we do and what we accomplish. This is going to be a great story.

Tuesday, June 29, 2010

what the hell just happened?

I have never hurt this bad before. I feel like I've lost a piece of me.
It was so good when we had it. Something changed so quickly...what was it?
So this is what being numb feels like.

Wednesday, January 27, 2010


This is my favorite picture ever.
The beauty that comes out of tragedy is unexplainable.

Monday, January 18, 2010


"Darkness cannot drive out darkness; only light can do that. Hate cannot drive out hate; only love can do that." ~MLK, Jr.

I pray to be a person that drives love.

Wednesday, January 13, 2010

warning sign

I was listening to The Last Kiss soundtrack [amazing album and movie I highly recommend both to all]. and this song came on. You can listen to a song a million times and like it, but sometimes there is that one moment that it catches you and hear the song in a totally different way. And how those moments can happen many different times with the song changing its meaning to you.
At one time, this song meant one thing to me. But now when I listen to it, I think of something very different. I guess a song can really effect you by what is going on in your life.

A warning sign
I missed the good part, then I realised
I started looking and the bubble burst
I started looking for excuses
Come on in
I've gotta tell you what a state I'm in
I've gotta tell you in my loudest tones
That I started looking for a warning sign

When the truth is, I miss you
Yeah the truth is, that I miss you so

A warning sign
It came back to haunt me, and I realised
That you were an island and I passed you by
And you were an island to discover

Come on in
I've gotta tell you what a state I'm in
I've gotta tell you in my loudest tones
That I started looking for a warning sign

When the truth is, I miss you
Yeah the truth is, that I miss you so

And I'm tired, I should not have let you go

So I crawl back into your open arms
Yes I crawl back into your open arms
And I crawl back into your open arms
Yes I crawl back into your open arms.